Entry 12: Still awake at 1:24 AM, much left to think about

July 25th, 2025

You know what is something I am realizing as I am writing my 4th draft of this entry? Being a creative is a whole lot harder when you aren't given any specific direction.

Has anyone dealt with that before?

Of course, I'm not sure if I have mentioned it before, but I recalled having a better time with projects in school, as I was told, "This is what type of project we'll be doing this session".

I still had some challenges in finding good ideas and executing them to the best of my creative ability, but that's the thing:

I had a foundation to build on. Now that I have graduated and projects are no longer for a grade, and considering that most of the time projects aren't being instructed by a client or overseen by anyone other than myself, I feel like I'm stuck.

On a side note, I wrote the beginning based on "emotion", but honestly, I see it as logical thinking / logical reasoning. In a sense, am I being too self analytical to make such a statement?

Could this be the "don't make decisions past midnight, as you can't trust those thoughts" ideology that many have thrown caution to?

Are these just many words written, but nothing of substance was communicated?

Who knows.