It's an interesting line of thought

February 6th, 2026

Did those essays I had to write for school help me in any way?

I believe they did. Something I noticed is that when I am required to write for specific reasons, I tend to write in an essay format. For example, say you give me an essay for a PSAT write or an essay for a film class, I could do most of what is required of me. I do the research, work in reverse (write my points that would answer the prompt), and finally prepare a thesis.

But now, having graduated and in need to do creative projects thought by myself, why do I struggle? Of course, I am not a sitting duck. I get ideas, and I would love express them.

Really, I think the thing I struggle with the most right now is execution. I can start something, but might give up or get stuck in the middle of the-

Ok, maybe not in the middle of the idea, but I believe self sabotage or something else stops me from meeting everyone else at the end of the project. And just who is everyone else?

I... not sure actually.

Am I meeting a Better Me?

Am I meeting connections to new friends who admire my work?

Am I meeting the reader?

I know I am making these things for myself, but as human as can be, I would love to show my little trinkets and doodads to others. I like seeing people happy with my work, and trust me, I like being happy when I look at my work... sometimes. I don't know, I truely don't know.